L'émoi

There's something about capturing someone's heartache and this RAW feel of emotions in camera. Just the RAW tears coming down someone's cheeks makes you wonder what sort of pain is that person going through. The intense glare and no exchange of words gives us deep feeling of grief and agony.  While having the mysterious feel of someone's suffering projects outwardly to the audience.  Then again words don't have power to hurt you, unless that person means a lot to you. But yet when someone gets hurt we tend to go through the cycle to recovery (Shock, Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Testing and Acceptance). As humans ultimately we have hurt over all. We tend to have the mentality of saying Emotionally - I'm done, Mentally - I'm drained, Spiritually - I'm dead and yet Physically I smile for everyone.  Knowing how it feels, exactly knowing how it feels gives you the experience of hurt. Knowing exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you, and waiting for everyone to fall asleep so you can fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. Feeling empty and broken and lost. Feeling every drop of tear is every little piece of your hear tearing away one drop at a time. Thinking how much more tears do you have until your tear ducts are empty. Every second you go through this seems like eternity and never ends. Yes emotions is like a derange psychopath living inside your inner most being. Thinking of every single approach on how you can go through the recovery process. Some might feel that there's no end to this and the only way to end it is to...  While others have the right focus to go back on track.  Emotions is a state of consciousness in which sorrow, fear, hate, hurt is experienced as distinguished from cognitive and volitional state of our divine consciousness. Emotions is our enemy within us trying to creep in, waiting for the right time, slowly crouching waiting for it's prey to be helpless and unarmed. Emotions is like the lion inside us waiting for it to devour our inner most being. Emotions is our darkness within us that will unite with Hate and Anger. The darkness that seeps in for the kill. Emotion is danger, danger that kills and slaughters all the good that we have inside.